I remember what I thought about Christmas as a child.The awe and wonder,all the pretty lights and family visiting.I always looked forward to my oldest sister's visit.Now I'm grown up with a husband and two kids of my own.I try so hard to make it pretty and festive around my house.It's like no one cares. They seem to view my efforts to try and include them as a waste of their time since the decorations come down in a month. To me it is all worth the effort because it's pretty and it makes me feel good.
I seem to complain alot on my blog.That's because there is no one to listen to me with out being judgmental . I feel better already.
This year will not even be the same as last year.My son is in a group home and the decision is up to his probation officer if he comes home for Christmas or not.They told him at this home not to get his hopes up because his probation officer rarely let her charges go home for ANY holidays.She had a charge there last year and her charge was the only child left athe home who did not get to go home.We're talking about kids who are in there for attempted murder who are awaiting reentry who will get to go home to their parents.My son is a theif and he may not get to come home.He's 17.If he does not get to come home it will be the first Christmas he has never been here for Christmas.
At the same time my sister's oldest daughte will not be home at her house for Christmas either.Her job on a cruise ship will keep her away through May.
I will not be the only one who is missing their child this year.My sister will miss hers.I have a friend who lost her daughter to a brain tumor last year in September on the daughter's birthday.I know I sound selfish whining about Ryan not being home for Christmas when Lakyn will never be home for anything ever again.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Here We Go Again
My life is uncomplicated compared to some and I thank my lucky star everday for that.Then again it is complicated enough as it is.
I quite work in January '05 to go back to school again.I went for one semester and passed everything but my math.Math has always been my hardest subject.I don't hate it or anything,it's just that most of the time I can't get it right.I try but well it doesn't work.I took the summer off because my daughter was going to keep the nephew mentioned in the previous entry and I did not want her here alone,10 miles outside of town and unable to drive if anything happened to either of them.
My sister-in-law changed his doctor to one in Pensacola, so we were going back and forth alot, about 90 miles, one way in August and September.He's nine.In the fist month of school he was suspended 3 times and in trr the rest of the time until about 3 weeks ago.His dad came home about a 10 days ago and his mom has turned him over to his dad.I still don't know if that is such a good idea to turn over a kid with ADHD and Conduct Disorder over to a man who has just returned from Iraq.I'm watching closely.
My 17 year old son has gotten himself into trouble once again.We'll just have to see where it goes from here.He had already changed friends when he was called into the Sheriff's department for some involvement in b&e with the old set of friends.I like his new friends better.They have curfews and better morals. His dad is really angry.I think even moreso than the first time. My son asked for a clean slate when he came home from bootcamp,we gave it to him.Now I know what my mother meant when she said children break your heart.
I quite work in January '05 to go back to school again.I went for one semester and passed everything but my math.Math has always been my hardest subject.I don't hate it or anything,it's just that most of the time I can't get it right.I try but well it doesn't work.I took the summer off because my daughter was going to keep the nephew mentioned in the previous entry and I did not want her here alone,10 miles outside of town and unable to drive if anything happened to either of them.
My sister-in-law changed his doctor to one in Pensacola, so we were going back and forth alot, about 90 miles, one way in August and September.He's nine.In the fist month of school he was suspended 3 times and in trr the rest of the time until about 3 weeks ago.His dad came home about a 10 days ago and his mom has turned him over to his dad.I still don't know if that is such a good idea to turn over a kid with ADHD and Conduct Disorder over to a man who has just returned from Iraq.I'm watching closely.
My 17 year old son has gotten himself into trouble once again.We'll just have to see where it goes from here.He had already changed friends when he was called into the Sheriff's department for some involvement in b&e with the old set of friends.I like his new friends better.They have curfews and better morals. His dad is really angry.I think even moreso than the first time. My son asked for a clean slate when he came home from bootcamp,we gave it to him.Now I know what my mother meant when she said children break your heart.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Today is No Better
Yesterday was the first day of school for my children.My daughter is 14 and excited about being a Freshman.My son is 17 and a Junior.I don't hink he is excited about school at all.They have a new building which now seperates the high school from junior high.Meaghan is taking advance diploma and we are just trying to get Ryan to pass.He is your typical underacheiver.
I am not a single-parent but my husband is away at work so often I feel like one alot of the time.I do not even want to think about being a single parent.I salute all of those who are.
My nephew has just started playing football at 9 for the first time.He seems to enjoy it but there are other issues that need to be addressed.For one he has never been properly "socialized".He does not have friends who spend the night or he spends the night with.He acts out in public to the point where you don't want the stress of taking him out in public which is what his mother has always done.She kept him at home when he was little.No day care,no outside contact with others with the exception of church on Sundays.He has ADHD and is on a new med that doesn't work.His dad has been deployed to Iraq and his mother blames the way he acts on that but like I told her he acted that way before his dad was deployed.Pray for him,he needs it.
I am not a single-parent but my husband is away at work so often I feel like one alot of the time.I do not even want to think about being a single parent.I salute all of those who are.
My nephew has just started playing football at 9 for the first time.He seems to enjoy it but there are other issues that need to be addressed.For one he has never been properly "socialized".He does not have friends who spend the night or he spends the night with.He acts out in public to the point where you don't want the stress of taking him out in public which is what his mother has always done.She kept him at home when he was little.No day care,no outside contact with others with the exception of church on Sundays.He has ADHD and is on a new med that doesn't work.His dad has been deployed to Iraq and his mother blames the way he acts on that but like I told her he acted that way before his dad was deployed.Pray for him,he needs it.
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