Not Much

I have come to the point where I look back and think "This is so not how it was supposed to be". At what point can you put a finger on a certain time in your life and say THIS is where it began to spiral.
Don't get me wrong, I have a good life. I have to healthy kids just stepping across the threshold into the adult world,a husband who loves me and I love after almost 20 years of marriage.
More to follow if I can think of what I want to say. LOL