Not Much

I have come to the point where I look back and think "This is so not how it was supposed to be". At what point can you put a finger on a certain time in your life and say THIS is where it began to spiral.
Don't get me wrong, I have a good life. I have to healthy kids just stepping across the threshold into the adult world,a husband who loves me and I love after almost 20 years of marriage.
More to follow if I can think of what I want to say. LOL

Anger

is such a waste of time and energy. Most of the time I am a normal person, or at least as close to normal a person can get. I do not like being angry but I get that way frequently. Meds do not help now days like they did when I was younger. I know how to control my anger but it takes so much energy when I smile instead of rage. OH well.

At This Moment in Time...

I have decided that the vast majority of people are stupid. Not ignorant just plain stupid. They rattle on incessantly about things that are stupid and of no importance what so ever.
That would have to be the reason why Greta Garbo said "I vant to be alone." The never ending roar of inane chatter from a stupid person vibrating in her skull. The ache caused in her eardrums their voice. It hurts so bad.
Don't be stupid when you speak. Think with the gray matter between your ears before you punish someone with your voice. And FOR GOD'S SAKE DON'T WHINE. It is not cute just annoying. This is why whining works for the person whining. The person being whined to or at doesn't want to go to prison for murdering you so they give in.
So for your safety and others sanity think.

At This Moment in Time....

people are breathing a sigh of relief at the break that they arr receiving at the pumps. Now all of those who feel the relief need to check out the layoffs. The highest unemployment since 1993 some experts say since WWII. Think it's a coincidence? No it isn't. Oil powers our nation and the world. Scream for fuel alternatives long enough and you'll get them. Do some research people. Everyone thinks that with alternative fuel sources in place "Big Oil" will suffer. They won't. All of the "Big Oil" companies own stock in every aspect of the energy industry. When anyone thinks they have the ability to invent a "new" alternative fuel these companies swoop in and offer the inventor money for this. There is no way for these companies to be "stuck" They have the resources to buy up all rights. They do.
There is no way to attack them and come out on top. It just will not work. Now people believe President elect Obama will change this. He won't. People he grew up with money. Do the research there s well. His step father worked for Mobil oil. His grandmother was VP of a bank. He went to private school and then onto the Ivy League. His campaign slogan was change. BELIEVE. BE LIE VE. LIE is at the center of believe. We have allowed the government to become all powerful. This is not what our fore fathers wanted when they fought the English empire. Yet we have became like sheep to the slaughter. This is not what should be. This is not what was thought to be. This is not what was wanted for us to be. This is what we have become.
"Whenever a man has cast a longing eye on offices,a rottenness begins in his conduct." Thomas Jefferson Yet we look to our government for everything. These men knew the corruption of a "government" where one man was at the head. That is why no one man can make all of the decisions for our country. Yes the President can veto but he can make no move on his own and when he can he is corrupt with power.
There are so many things wrong with our nation that our forefathers sought to guard against. Yet they have come in to play.

Joseph Trent King

This is Trent. He was such a sweet,well mannered young man. I miss his face and his funny self.When he lived here I got to spend alot of time with him and find out what some of his hopes and dreams were. One of those was to own a motorcycle. A crotch rocket. That motorcycle was what was the death of him. He was 18 years old. He will be missed by all that knew him.

Ron Pope "Drop In The Ocean"

Went to the doctor .....

they have decided that the Lamictal I take for my BiPolar state has worked very well on my manic episodes. So well in fact I am currently depressed which is assisting in the panic attacks that I am having. Nothing like having a screwed up brain. At least this helps to explain the fact that I feel my brain is shriveling.

MY BRAIN....

feels like it is shriveling. I really think it is. It's getting harder to think everyday. I don't like that. I always was a thinker. I have a great capacity for reasoning. I love to think. Now I am becoming frustrated when I try to think. It's enough to make a gal angry.